d'accord.

this blog was designed so that i could throw all the things which crossed my mind or heart.

i never found someone better than you and everytime i say i love you, you feel the duty to say you love me more and if i say so, you deny it.

i'm not disappointed with us, or with you. i'm disappointed with our life. our best expectations are based in seven or six glasses of beer. we see each other for 24h/d. we awake up together, we eat together, we go to supermarket together and we barely fight for something.

the problem is i'm not able to live without you anymore. it's not because you're the only person next to me, it's not because here you're the one who really cares about me. it's easy to catch me in this tread, i just need to close my eyes and realise about my future, where my house will be empty of you, empty of your usual habits as spreading your clothes and shoes over the floor, smoking your killing cigarettes by the morning, making your coffe without any sugar...

do you remember when i used to speak about my last boyfriend or about one of them? you hated. technically is the same with me, i also hate when you talk about details of your relationships. do not talk about making "love" in cars.

i feel bad about myself these last months. insecure and some other things related to that.
you're young, beautiful, fucking intelligent, you don't need to sacrifice anything for me right now.

i think when i say "i love you" you should respect. you don't need to fix me, i'm not broken anymore. even if i was, it's not fixable.


i love you, Kaiser.